Wednesday, August 13, 2008


the three peas are in the midst of transition. hundreds of miles away from home are we and living under separate roofs. college life has begun. the youngest pea in an apartment home and the two older peas in a suite hotel. i have a feeling this is most difficult for me, but still challenging for the men in my life. chomping at the bit to gallop toward independence is nathaniel and pulling back in tiny, minute ways on the reins am i and kelly somewhere in the middle encouraging everyone to embrace the next phase of our lives.

i tried to convince nathaniel that he needed a toilet brush. he and kelly finally convinced me that that was a decision to be made by nathaniel and his roommates. i relented and internally cringed at what a bathroom shared by two eighteen year old boys could look like by winter break. i guess he'll appreciate home that much more and perhaps finally realize what it takes to keep your living space neat and tidy.

also, i'm worried about food, but already there have been many opportunities for a free meal, so i guess he won't starve.

we leave here in two days...165 pounds lighter. the missing weight, though, could make my heart heavier than it's ever felt.


MB Shaw said...

Hugs darlin' This is a tough time. I can't even imagine.....
Haven't seen you for way too long. I'll be back at Schlafly this year (2nd weekend Sept) if you and Kelly are out and about.

Becky said...

i feel your pain. and i can tell you, it will get easier. not sure if it ever feels quite right, but your heart will definitely be lighter.
see you soon.
lll, m

Linda said...

it will get easier dear friend...sending you a hug today!