thus far, i've steered clear of sharing too much that was personal on this blog. i guess i'm ready to shatter that standard.
i've always adhered to the belief that keeping my fears secreted away only fueled them. once the light of day hit what frightened me, their power was diminished. so in the spirit of squashing my fears, i'm exposing my most recent fear to the harshest light known--the internet.
for over two weeks, i've been nursing the longest running migraine in my personal history. this so annoyed me (and my sweet husband) that i made an appointment to see my physician. i know folks suffer with migraines every day. there are women i know personally who are incapacitated by their headaches. thankfully, i have not experienced their level of pain with this round of headaches, but it was starting to interfere with my day-to-day life. and ladies and gentlemen, that just doesn't fly with the queen!
so i saw my doctor.
here's a brief history before we go too much further...in december i had cancer. it was not the type of cancer that causes the afflicted long-suffering bouts of pain. i had an abscessed perforation in my colon and through the process of removing the infected stretch of bowel, my surgeon inadvertently and miraculously removed a cancerous growth. i did not have to undergo chemotherapy or radiation. i had cancer. it got removed. in effect, i won the lottery.
so when i started to have stubborn headaches that wouldn't go away, i thought maybe somebody should check it out. i saw the doctor and she said that given my "history" she'd like to send me for an MRI...well, let's just say the worry started to work on me a bit.
now imagine that in the course of no less than three days, on three separate occasions and without knowledge of the other offers, three kind people offer to accompany you to said MRI (a test, you have been assured, is quite routine), well, you might worry even a little bit more.
so now i sit here, in a bit of a tizzy with still two days to go before the test.
please, light of day, work your magic.