Tuesday, November 22, 2005

the holidaze...

our annual thanksgiving day ritual is in a state of flux this year. usually we go to the lake and eat a sumptuous buffet meal, swim in the hotel pool, go to the movies, and of course, shop at the outlet mall. this year our plans remain, two days before the holiday, up in the air. the lack of plans this close to turkey-day has my bowels in an uproar--literally.

part of the reason we are undecided as to where to go and what to do is that i have been under the weather for the better part of three weeks. i saw my oncologist on friday and she has me scheduled for a CT of my abdomen and pelvis for wednesday morning. my oncologist is not concerned, just cautious...but still...as anyone who's ever had any medical tests performed, the waiting for the results is the very hardest part. since my test is on the wednesday before the holiday, i will, most likely, not know anything until after the weekend.

i have so much to be thankful for this year (as i do EVERY year) but i sincerely feel the need to eat an abundance of turkey, stuffing, cranberries and pumpkin pie to celebrate, this, the first thanksgiving since my surgery. i just wish there was a way to get instant results from my test...to put my mind at ease...to settle my stomach in preparation for the feast of thanks.

5 comments:

Karyl said...

Please go to the lake. You will worry no matter where you are, so you might as well be in different surroundings! Buy yourself something really special at your favorite outlet mall store and consider yourself hugged!

debbie said...

i'm praying for you that all will be well soon....anything to do with my hands, and reading always helps me....especially doing for others or visiting with those that need a friend with a listening ear....

sharonwisely said...

You will be in my prayers everyday.

firstborn studio said...

dear heidi,
i am very thankful for you and your giving spirit,i feel i have known you my whole life.you will certainly be in my prayers,you are always in my thoughts!
today...sb be damned!
love u,
denise

MB Shaw said...

I keep trying to think of something to say here....and everything that comes out sounds sort of shallow. Fact is, I can't imagine what you are going through right now. I am saying a prayer for you. You are loved.